If I could tell my younger self one thing, it would be this: No one is coming to save you. It’s always you—through the ups and downs, through the storms and silences. You are the one who has to take care of yourself, baby girl.
I know you had your father issues. When the world was crashing down on you, no one stepped in to save you. That small, heartbroken child, just craving love and protection—no one gave it to her. She was the first granddaughter, the first daughter, the first niece, yet no one shielded her from the darkness that lived within them. No one ever told her that she was on her own.
She kept seeking help, desperately trying to fill that hollowness inside her. A child who grows up watching her parents fight, staring at her mother and realizing that she wasn’t born out of love but out of hate—there’s a world of difference between the two. And that difference never fades.
A child never truly understands why her father says cruel things to her mother. Why her mother is always drowning in sorrow. Why her uncles whisper behind her father’s back, scolding him when he’s not around. Why they feel sorry for their sister. Why her mother, overwhelmed with frustration, takes her anger out on her.
She never understood why, from such a young age, there was so much pressure on her to study hard—to secure a better future, not just for herself, but for everyone else. She was a bright, enthusiastic child—gifted in sports, arts, and studies. But she lost it. She lost it all.
There was nothing normal about her childhood. She was pressured, broken, and traumatized—not because of who she was, but because of who her father was. He wasn’t a good husband. He wasn’t a good father. And that alone made them see her as a burden.
But what they never realized is that she never asked for much—just a responsible father. Just someone to make her feel safe. And in the end, when she didn’t get that love or protection from either side, she had no choice but to become her own savior.
She is not just broken—she is art. An antique. Rare, valuable, and irreplaceable.
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